My husband and I have been digging deeper spiritually and asking God to renew our purpose and give us guidance. Both of us have walked away from dreams that God gave us in the past because we could not see how to do it without financially ruining our family. We lacked faith.
I am headstrong and my husband trusts that when I run with something, I can either make it work, or find a solution that will work. That is just my personality. I will find a way, because I have had to in the past. He has a tendency to put his desires on the back burner for the “safety” and “security” of our family and finances.
Over the last year, God has been feeding us a spiritual message that our dreams are not dead. That He gives us new purpose. We first got it at church from our amazing pastor. He preached for weeks on several subjects and in the end always came back to the message that God has not given up on our dreams. We are part of a church that believes that following the guidance of the Holy Spirit in service is best. Sticking to the program structure hinders the work of God. Then people started coming up and saying “I don’t know what you are going through, but God wants you to know…”
I started just begging God for direction. I have so many things I want to do, which one is the one God wants me to do? I would try to just do one and then the message that I am a five talent servant instead of one talent would come up.
Right now, we are in transition. God is ramping us up to something bigger. We were so tied up before in unbelief. We believed that God could do anything, but not really through us and on the scale that we wanted.
Freedom is what we needed. Freedom is what we still need. 2 Corinthians 3:17 says “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” We are looking for freedom. Freedom from what the world says is acceptable for us. We have to grow up, get jobs and settle down now that we are married and have kids. We were forgetting that with God all things are possible. We can pursue our dreams, GOD GIVEN DREAMS, without being financially irresponsible.
Is my husband my provider? My first answer was “Yes. He provides the income that keeps us afloat.” Nope. GOD IS MY PROVIDER. My husband works and makes money, but God opened that door. God provided that income source. 2 Peter 1:3 says that God has given us everything we need. All things pertaining to life come from the Lord. So with God providing for us as long as we trust in Him and work on the path He has provided, we will be more than fine.
We need freedom from our idea of what we deserve. The bible clearly tells us that the wages of sin is death. However, God sent his son not to condemn us but to SAVE us from what we deserve. Grace and Mercy cover us! We get a heavenly reward that we did nothing to earn. On earth, God has made it possible for us to be prosperous too. I lived with the perception that I was never good enough. I was a filthy sinner, why would God want to do any more for me than He already had.
God doesn’t see us that way. Once we accept Christ, He sees us through the filter of Christ’s blood. He sees us as clean and whole. Jesus fills in our gaps and we are made complete in Him. God wants us to succeed because He loves us! We are good enough because He made us and if we fall short, He fills in our gaps and it is for His Glory! When we succeed and give the Glory to God (where is rightly belongs), then His kingdom expands. Why would God hold me back from that? HE WOULD NOT! “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 We don’t live on a system of fairness/earning/deserving. We live in a system of GRACE/MERCY/BLESSING.
We need freedom from limits. With God there are no limits. It’s easy to say, but applying to your life is difficult. The world has beat it into us that our goals need to be realistic. “The sky is the limit.” That’s a statement meant to encourage us, but really it is a limiting statement. There are no limits, not even the sky. Really! God is the the God of everything. Not the just the sky, not just the world, not just this Galaxy, not just this UNIVERSE. He is the GOD of everything. HE created everything. The bible tells us that there is nothing that is impossible.
Now how do we get all this freedom? My husband and I love the music of Skillet. We love to rock out to music with a message. When God started giving us this dream, the lyrics of a song by Skillet stuck with my husband. “Break their hold, ‘Cause I won’t be controlled, They can’t keep their chains on me, When the truth has set me free, This is how it feels when you take your life back, This is how it feels when you finally fight back, When life pushes me I push harder, What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.” I first thought that the lyrics sounded like rebellion from God. Then I realized, taking our life back didn’t mean that we are putting our destiny into our own hands. We are taking it back from the world and giving it to God. We hadn’t been trusting God with our future. Now we are and God has been blessing us the whole way. The only way to gain true freedom is to take on the purpose that God has for you. It is going to be a lot of work. The world is going to try to push against it. The idea that you aren’t shaping your destiny and that you give control to someone else sounds horrifying to the world. God has good plans for us. Why wouldn’t we trust Him with our future?
This is how you take your life back. You tell the world, NO. You give it over to God and you put your absolute best effort into doing His will.
I didn’t think that I could commute to school without it taking a huge toll on our family. I didn’t think I could ever be a stay at home mom. I didn’t think I would ever succeed. I put limits on what God could do for me.
My advice for anyone stuck where I was: Take God out of your box you keep Him in. Let God be God and submit to His will for you. Only then can you rise again, renewed in purpose, and fully armed take your life back. He has already given you victory.